I had a long conversation with an old friend of mine, and I realised things and people do change, and at times they can be for the worse.
After the call, I was pondering on several things that have been disturbing me and I felt its better I share this bit of sense that ran inside my mind. ( Yeah finally a post about the "sense" part :D )
The friend I had mentioned earlier is a (rather was a) peculiarly sincere fellow, used to surprise even teachers with the level of sincerity that he had. But now, for most part of the talk he seemed disinterested in everything, and had this "why do I care ?" attitude,,, this startled me, and as I was trying to figure out on what must have come over him, I realised this he wasn't devoid of company, many people I happen to know have come over some kind of a situation like this.
I do agree that everyone has limits, but we never know them till put all our skills to test. There is no sense in saying "This is all that I can do", unless you've tried doing with full effort.
It is not that we had the potential and enthusiasm then and lost it now, those things are still lurking underneath the thick fabric of our new mentality that we've somehow acquired.
Something which I'll shortly refer to as the "So what ?" attitude.
Most of us aren't afraid to try or do things, we just aren't bothered. We say things like, " So what, I know I'm good, why should I prove things now, why should I use my potentials now ?" This a question which can't be answered, atleast not by me.
But I can reply in kind, imagine what will happen if everyone starts asking such questions, what if your instructor says "So what, you are not going to learn anyway" or your garbage collector says "So what? your corridor will be dirty anyway"
Does this kind of questioning make any sense? What will you answer in these situations?
Its not a question of justifying what you are doing, it is about what you can do. The thing that's worse than quitting or losing is being complacent, believing that you are weak and that's all you are capable of. No one can help you in such a situation, not even the skills that you have mastered. The beginning of everything is believing in yourself, only then you can even expect others to believe in you. Start to care, even if no one else does care for you. You must be the last person to give up on yourself.
Okay, now this part is done, now you begin to believe in yourself, then another problem arises, finding our destination. It is easy to some, they are just born with an ambition. But there are many of us who find the path as we go by life's winding streets. Whichever the class we belong to, a goal is always important. Sticking to goals is vital, but knowing when to change them requires humility and wisdom. There are times that pass by, when we have to choose between what we want to do and what we can/should do. The realisation that our path has to change is definitely not something easy to accept, it takes a lot of courage to change something that we have pursued for ages, again here, questions like why should I change pop up, to which I have no answer. But remember the first part of the post, trying new things is not going to hurt, this is time we get rid of our stubbornness and pre-conceived notions.
But again there should be a balance, we should never be in the extremes, you need to set your priorities right. Learning to say no is also very vital. Everyone has individual ideas of what's important and what's not, its not necessary that we should live by them, but keep in mind you do give a little thought into them so that you don't end up with selfish ideals. It is you who has to decide, what you can change for the right reason and what it is that you should defend with everything that you have.
Finally have this in mind, time is something that you can never afford to lose. Don't gulp off the ticking clock in the name of enjoyment or spending time with others. They are very essential I agree but at the same time, that cannot be an excuse to waste time. Just think, whom are you trying to convince when you are trying to explain why you haven't been doing something that you were supposed to do. Looking back and regretting is never going to help. All of us have done this at some point or the other, why don't we learn from it and not repeat it ?
[ Seriously I'm tired to trying to convince myself as to why am not mugging for ID and writing this post :P ;) ]
So I'm signing off for now, do let me know what you feel about the issues I've tried to make sense of, have fun and keep smiling :).
